'Cause we all been painted by numbers.

So, I think I should put off this "women and hormones" entry I mentioned before for next time. I think it's about time for a New Year's entry, yea?

And maybe this time, I won't look back.
Every year whenever I write my New Year's entry, I look back at what was -- if I was able to do what I always wanted to, if I've done something great, if I've met new people, if I've improved. Or not. I kept saying in those entries that I shouldn't regret, too. I think by writing those entries, I've regretted.

Not directly, but somehow I have. By realizing the things I'm thankful for, I realize my mistakes. By realizing my mistakes, I realize what I could have done better. By that, I regret.

And you're really not supposed to. When you look at those mistakes, you look at them not to wish you could have done something else. The whole point of looking back is to be thankful of what you've done so far and what your choices, may it be the choices you wanted to take or the choices you had to take, have done for you. It's extremely cliche to say but things really do happen for a reason.

I myself have a couple of regrets.
Actually, more of "what ifs". Like, what if instead of losing that fight with my dad on whether to study in UST (for Architecture, the course I still dream of taking) or DLSU for college? What if right now I'm on my 3rd year there, currently taking my majors, studying to be an architect? Would I be as happy as I am now in Ateneo, where I had to transfer to just to be able to take up fine arts, a far second choice?

For me, it's still pretty hard to let go. I still want to take up Architecture, I still want to be an architect. And I still don't understand my dad's petty reasons not letting me go to UST. It's been three years and I still wonder about it. In my head, I can imagine my dad and I conversing about it -- I could never win. Even if I say things happen for a reason, I still can't really accept it.

And I'm not going to use that as a turning point for this entry.
Things happen for a reason but I'm not going to accept it for that event. What I do is I make the most out of what I have now. For me not to regret my stay in Ateneo, I try not to tinker around that what if because I know I'll just regret the years I've spent here already.

Just so you know, I'm thankful for a lot of things.
And I'm not going to enumerate them KASI SABI KO NGA HINDI AKO MAGLULOOKBACK. Jeki, ano ba?


Hay. Okay.
So. Instead of looking back, I'm here to look forward to 2010.

1. BENTE NA AKO SA APRIL.
I remember Buh not taking it so well when it was his turn last February, calling that age twenteen. I'm not sure how I'll take it. Maybe there's that feeling of getting old? But I don't know, I still look twelve -- I'm not sure how I'd feel old.

Ewan. But it's something to look forward to, first year as an adult!
(Haha it's sounds so immature to say out loud.)

2. Friends are coming home :D
Roz is finally going back after her one-year exchange student time in Korea by early January, Tina Marie's going to visit by May, and I think Pin's going back for Christmas? I don't know, I forgot. Pin, are you going back for Christmas? Please say you're going back for Christmas? :D

3. LR39++'s graduation!
WOW HAHA Imagine if I didn't transfer? I'd be graduating with you guys.
I want to witness this, someone make me part of their family for the day haha

4. Analog with Roz.
Since she's coming back home, we get to visit that toy camera store and look at the nice ones.
I want the Fuji Instax Mini 7 one but maaaybe I might get a Superheadz UWS Fat Lens instead. Or The Golden Half (that I just found today it's so small and it sounds like a good investment)! I guess I have a thing for wide angle lenses. I'm really looking forward to this!

It's so much easier to long for these kinds, it's so much easier on the wallet.

5. Majors :D
I want to become an artist. A REAL ONE.

6. 365 Project.
I'm determined to do my photo a day project. It'll really help in my artistic journey hoho

7. Another year.
What other reason is there? Another 365 days to plan and look forward to -- new chances, choices, and challenges.


To old friends, thank you for being part of my year every year (:
Thank you for all the spontaneity of Isaw Fridays during Wednesdays, the arguments over petty things, the highs we got just getting together, and simply just the time we spent. Amazing, it was.

To new friends, thank you for being part of my year now.
Where have you been? I've met people I could never imagine to be friends with, people who have similar brainwaves as I, people I'm sure to love as the days go by. I look forward to each of the next days I'll be spending with you guys. Thank you for the laughs so far, the nights you've kept me up, and the things you've taught me.


So many things happened this year. So many tragic calamities occurred that sometimes, it's hard to see how this year was great. So many people have passed away, not just celebrities but people who are dear to us. It's hard to understand how things happen for a reason. In fact, it's a stupid excuse to tell those who were directly affected.

There's nothing I can say to make it better but here's to hoping for a lighter year. Definitely hopefully eventful but much more lighter on the aches.

In my 28pt font (or not pero ito na yung pinakamalaki sa Blogspot), I say
Happy 2010!