I will keep you in the corner of my eye.

Ohwow, I kind of forgot about this blog for a while.
And so here I am, back and fat as ever! Not that I'm complaining, I'm very happy eating to my heart's (and stomach's) content. I remember one of our lessons in Histo (oh, how I loathe thee): fat women were regarded as beautiful. Not because they were easy on the eyes, but it shows their wealth and capability -- they get to eat a lot and never get thin by working a sweat.

But enough about school, this blog is supposed to take me away from all that stress!
And speaking of stress, let me rant: I've promised that I would step up in my org (ACLC) this year and I think I'm doing fine taking all the responsibilities but God, I think I've taken too many. Or maybe I'm just overwhelmed? Both core teams (one for our Christmas Party, another for the Basic Needs Sale) have just started their planning and both have deadlines soon. Add majors requirements, all those papers, and required readings to the mix and we have a fiesta!

I can do this!
I think I've also taken both jobs for my majors, I have to put some artsy fartsy work in there somehow. All my achievements were taken from the backs of the medals I've gotten from football. Those won't land me a job under Fine Arts :\

I have to keep working on my portfolio. This track is very competitive, since I'm not rich. I'm well-off but hell, those I compete with in the business are those who can afford all those state-of-the-art gadgets and with all those connections rich people naturally attract. It's really unfair because I guess pure talent can't get you everywhere, eh? And the rich people get even more richer 'cause it's naturally easier for them. I mean, just get the greatest DSLR in the world, buy those expensive filters, buy a studio, show a contact and it's easy sailing.

We normal people have to work a lot harder. Not that those rich people aren't talented but we have to be a lot more skillful and resourceful since we barely have connections and I guess opportunities don't just open up to us as easily as it does to them.


I hate ranting about this, makes me scared about the future.



Okay happy things, happy things:
1. I'm rereading South of the Border, West of the Sun before I read this new book I bought, A Wild Sheep Chase, by the same author: Haruki Murakami. I'm rereading it because I've realized that I think I've forgotten what it's about.

I'm already in chapter 6. I remember how it goes now but I'm hooked, it's like reading it for the first time. Haruki Murakami is a great writer.

2. December 8, 2009 at 5pm. Attack!

3. Both my 4:30-7:30 classes (FA major and IS elective) declared a freecut this week! I have never been this happy to get a freecut. I'm not sure why but I'm just really, really happy.

4. Nowadays, I feel so *insert emotion that's so.. melancholic that it's embarrassing to even mention in a blog* but right now, I feel like I have everything I need right here, right now. And it makes me content.
It makes me forget about feeling *aforementioned emotion*.